thx to all who have been reading my blog although i stopped posting here ages ago :) it means a lot to me. I've switched blogs.i'm now using blogspot.do drop by there if u have time and leave ur comments. thanks.
Guys, I will be taking a break from blogging. Dunno how long the break will last. Maybe a few months. Got lotsa stuff I need to sort out and deal with right now. Studies, and a few other things. However, you all can still contact me via handphone, email or Friendster. Add me in Friendster: ku_ria@hotmail.com
Thanks so much to all of you who have been faithful readers of my blog. Don't worry, I haven't contracted any fatal disease :) I just need some time out. Take care and continue to keep in touch. I'm always here for you all.
God bless you all!! My fellow bros and sisters-in Christ, keep on shining for Jesus k? Love all of you so much!! I promise I will resume blogging as soon as I have settled everything. Don't forget me k? hahaha
Hey, guess what? I'm a hymn person!! hehe, i'm some of you might be going like, huh? ok, in layman's terms that just means that I love hymns! I think I got it from my dad cos he's a hymn freak too. His favourite is Blessed Assurance. Me?Hmmm, I like almost all the hymns that I know. Before I go on, I would first like to clarify that I've got nothing against contemporary Christian music. In fact, I love lotsa CCM bands like Planet Shakers, and Hillsongs. However, I must say that I feel that hymns have something that can't be found in songs today. Of course, this is my personal opinion and I'm not expecting anyone to agree with me. I must admit that yes, many CC songs have touched hearts and have been instrumental in the flowing of God's anointing and work. But, I guess it's just the way hymns are written. It's as if the hymn composer is crafting a beautiful work of art. The words, music, everything is so perfectly planned. Besides that, hymns have that in depth meaning that can really, really touch my heart. I don't know if you people get what I'm talking about.. hehehe...
Anyways, this is a hymn written by H.G. Spafford and P.P Bliss. It's called 'It is Well With My Soul'. It's one of the hymns I really love and I'd like to type it down as an encouragement to many of you who have been going through emotional turmoil and times of questioning. May God bless you as you read the words or even sing it out loud. Think about it and meditate on the words and their meaning. It also stands a reminder to me that God knows everything and He has a purpose for each and every one of us although at times, things might not turn out as planned. Praise God cos He never gives up on us although at times we may be stubborn and only do things in the flesh.
IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL
When peace like a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say, It is well, it is well with my soul.
It is well (It is well) With my soul (With my soul) It is well, it is well with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, tho' trials shoul come, Let this blest assurance control, That Christ has regarded my helpless estate, And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
It is well (It is well) With my soul (With my soul) It is well, it is well with my soul.
My sin- oh, the bliss of this glorious tho't, My sin- not in part, but the whole Is nailed to the cross and I bear it no more, Praise the Lord, Praise the Lord, O my soul!
It is well (It is well) With my soul (With my soul) It is well, it is well with my soul.
And, Lord, haste the day when the faith shall be sight, The clouds be rolled back as a scroll, The trump shall re-sound and the Lord shall descend, "Even so"- it is well with my soul.
It is well (It is well) With my soul (With my soul) It is well, it is well with my soul.
Tau Foo Fah + Chee Cheong Fan = Heavenly Combination!!
Yesterday was pretty nice and eventful. Rizal, one of my best friends came back from UiTM Shah Alam and we (Rizal, Wu Kang, Siang Ling, Yuen Joo and yours truly) went out for dinner cum supper. :) I'm so proud of myself 8) cos yesterday I drove all the way to Raja Uda(oops..my parents had better not be reading this) and we had a lovely time just laughing and making fun of each other. Haha, as usual, any outing with me is an adventure. Guys, if you all are reading this, I'm so so so sorry, I didn't mean to swerve that fast :P Also, the incident at the Shell petrol station, well, just blame it on my lack of experience. :wink: Yeah, Wu Kang, it's your fault not mine, you know, what happened at the bread stall. Go apologize!! Neways, had real good fun with you all. Too bad Dasha and Jyne Pang couldn't make it :( Yay, I'm so glad I've got a new bunch of people to hang out with!! hehe.... Hmm, wonder how my 'old' supper kakis are doing. Haven't gone out with Gary, Vick and Gan in a loooooooong time. I know they're very busy with studies cos they will be taking the SAM exam soon. All the best, you guys!!
Okies, gtg...have to fetch my bro, Marcus from tuition :) will blog later if I have time
Wanna say thanks to all of you who've shown your support. Thanks to Chua Min; really appreciate your advice and counsel gurl :) Thanks to Shu Ai dearie, who text me all the way from Singapore after reading my blog. You rule, Shu Ai!! Thanks to Sarah as well. Sarah, Shu Ai and Herman are 3 very good friends of mine from Kuching, Sarawak. Ironically, we've only met once and the amount of time we've spent talking face-to-face doesn't even add up to 24 hours. But the love and support they've shown me is overwhelming and I'm really grateful. Thanks so much you guys! Love you lots!:wink: Thanks also to Jwen dearie. Miss you so much, gal! Take care..
Daddy just left to pick up mummy from the Penang airport. For those of you who don't know, Mummy was in Sarawak since last Saturday to attend Dr. Judson Tagal's funeral and also to visit my grandma. Mummy says she has lotsa stuff to share with us bout how God really worked through the tragedy. She says God really moved over there. Promise I'll share it with you guys once I get the news k? In the meantime, continue to praise the Lord!!
Hmm, nothing much to blog tonight. Once again thanks to all who have been my tower of strength. If I forgot to mention your names, please forgive me. Nitez people!
Is it hormones? I really don't know. Why on earth am I having so many mood swings lately? At times, I just feel like I wanna be James Dean..hahaha, you know, a rebel without a cause. I just feel like I wanna scream and shout and just jump and jump my frustration away cos I feel so tormented and just so, so, so frustrated at times. And you know what? I seriously don't know why I feel like that and it's making me MAD :evil: I never, ever had this problem when I was in my pre-teens. In fact, that's when you're supposed to most rebellious and under the influence of your hormones cos your body is changing and stuff, rite? I've never been rebellious, just ask my closest friends and they'll tell you. In fact, I play by the rules so much so that my best friend calls me Lizzie Macguire. Then suddenly, this year, I'm like, WOW, so..I donno. I've always heard bout people saying that there comes a time in every individual's life that he/she goes through a transitional period. I guess that's exactly what i'm going through cos I'm like so hopelessly searching for the real me and I still can't find it.
Sometimes, I feel so guilty for feeling like this. I'm so ungrateful. God has been so gracious to me. I'm able-bodied, healthy, I have a working brain, great parents, wonderful friends, and although we're not filthy rich, my family has never lacked anything and we always have more than enough. The very existence of my being is something I should be grateful about. And yet, I'm such a jerk. I moan and groan bout how lousy my life is when there are so many out there my age who have lives that are 1000 times worse than mine. Many of them are forced into prostitution, marriage, and so many more have to become the breadwinner of their family cos their parents are either too sickly or not educated enough to eke out even a meagre income.
I received loads of messages on my birthday. Many of the messages underlined the same thing:Be more mature now that you're 18. One of my best friends even told me not to be so paranoid. I've been doing some serious thinking lately. I'm 18 and yet still so dependant on my parents. Frankly speaking, I CAN survive without them, cos I came out of NS alive, didn't I? During NS, I could do so many things without any hassle or the help of others. It was because over there, I had to do them, and if I didn't, no one was going to do it for me. At home, although my mum nags like mad at times, she really spoils us cos she does literally everything for us. Yes, I have to do chores, but most of the time my mum will do the housework cos she says she is giving me more time to study. I feel so darn guilty. I really need to go somewhere so that i can learn to be independant. I need to grow as a human being. Yes, I'll miss my parents. Yes, I'll miss my friends even more, but I just need to go somewhere to discover who I, Kuria Dip Silas, really am.
Pray for me, please. I really, really need your prayers. It might sound really unimportant to you, but I am going through the toughest time of my life. There are so many things I can't explain and I don't wanna talk about because for the moment I've forgetten bout em and I don't wanna recall em. Just pray for me. I can only thank God that this is happening to me NOW and not when I'm married with kids. Haha, imagine going through all this turmoil when you have a career and kids. Wouldn't be cool now, would it? Neway, that's all I gotta say. I know most of you must be thinking I'm insane. I guess I really am. Thanks to all of you who have been encouraging me and putting up with my quirks all this while. I think you all know who you are. I can never thank God enough for friends like you all. Thanks so much.
Just got off the phone with me darling bestest friend, Suze who's in Taylors College. Man, we chatted for more than an hour and me phone bill is gonna sky rocket. Actually it has been sky-rocketing for the past few months, so i think it's like totally gonna explode. That and my mum when she gets the phone bill..hehehe. :wink: But I couldn't resist cos I miss her sooooooooo much and I haven't spoken to her for like more than a month. Sigh, miss those old days when I could call her everyday and like talk nonsense. Nowadays, we can only sms cos she's so far away. Miss her so so so much! :cry: We talked bout lotsa stuff. I updated her on what's going on in the sleepy town of Kulim and she bragged bout her being in a city and me being a kampung gal. Sheesh..hehe..but I still love you Suze :lol:
Hmm, didn't go to school today. Woke up feeling really weak, so i told daddy, i didn't wanna go to school. Slept til 10, got up, came online, watched tv. Did nonsense stuff.. Hmm, tried studying Chemistry. Nearly finished 2 chapters..hehe...
Nothing much to blog about today. Mummy is still in Sarawak. She's in Sibu now i think. Sibu is her hometown. I've been running the washing machine for the past 2 days and also scrubbing my bros white school shirts. Ahhh,reminiscent of NS days..hehe..miss NS so much.
Yin Yean gave me a call last night. Can't believe how much I miss her. Sigh, I miss too many people. It's driving me nuts.
Okies, enough bout missing people. Wanna shout out to Daniel!! Hihihihi! And Radiance!! Hihihihi!! And Mei Lynn!! Hihihihihi!!! And anyone else who's reading me bloggie!! Hihihihi!!
Hahaha, actually I'm like sooooooooo psyched cos it's August..that means there's like another 1 year and 3 months till my STPM ends and I say goodbye to high school life...finally!! Hahahaha, it's not like I'm even ready for STPM. Ahh, scrap STPM...it's not like I'm even 1% ready for my coming mid-term exams which begin on the 15th of August. Urghhhh..I'm so gonna fail. Sigh, pray for me. :sad:
Hmmm, mummy is in Kuching now. If I'm not wrong, she attended Jason Eng's funeral, then went to Uncle Judson's house. Uncle Judson's funeral will be tomorrow, i think. I'm still so sad and my heart really, really goes out to all the victims' families. :cry: May they experience the comfort of God's unending love. Please continue to uphold them in your prayers. Pray that they'll be strong and pray that something good will come out of all this.
Siang Ling and Yuen Joo gave me a belated birthday gift today. A stuffed toy. My fave animal : a pig!! I absoooooluuuuuutely looooooooove piggies. Hehe, pigs of all types, shapes and sizes. Even the stinky ones ;) Cos piggies are just so adorable, not to mention yummy to eat. Hahaha, I'm terrible rite? My fave pig of all time is Babe, cos he has such good manners and excellent grammar. Besides that, he's the most ambitious pig i know! Just imagine being in his shoes and competing with all those mean sheepdogs. Wow, if I was a pig, I'm sure I wouldn't be able to pull off that feat. So, here's to you Babe!! *raises glass for toast* :P Hmmm, for those of you who used to watch Warner Bros cartoons when you were young, remember Porky and Petunia, the pigs? I love them so much cos they were so darn cute and also lovers. Hahahaha :lol:
After school this afternoon, Gary came to pick me up cos he needed to come to my house and print out his assignments. Boy, I really love his car. It's a Peugeot sports car or something like dat...not sure. Darn cool, man! 8) Wish I had a car like that. Neway, tomorrow is his birthday!! Happy Early Birthday, G-Soon. God bless ya!
Thanks to Hermz who wished me a Happy Birthday. Hahahaha
I bet you all must be thinking, "Wat on earth is this wretched gal doing here, blogging? Didn't she say she had to study or something?" Yeah, yeah, I'm going. Sigh, no mood to study but what to do?
By the way, my speech went OK today. No one boo-ed. They didn't throw anything rotten. Actually, they were all very quiet. Hahaha..maybe they were like all sleeping, I donno.
Okies, I guess that's enough blogging for today..oops, I mean this week :wink: Oh yeah, today is Friendship Day. So, I just wanna shout out HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY to all of you!! God bless, take care and keep in touch k? Muackz...a BIG, WET, SLOPPY kiss for all of you :D
Cheerio :!:
Wheeeee.........finished me crappy speech at last!
Ahhh, bliss....hehe..just finished my stupid speech script. It's all tosh if I can say so myself but I like it cos it's like really,really good advice. Hahahaha...maybe if I had followed my own advice, I'd have obtained better results in SPM. Hahaha. Dang, I can just picture the juniors laughing their heads off and boo-ing my speech. Arghhh..sorry guys, but seriously, I did not want to present this speech. They forced me to. :cry:
Went to send mummy and Auntie Jamy to the airport. Mummy will be stopping over at Aunt Jamy's condo in Shah Alam before she takes the flight to Kuching. Pray for a safe journey. Since mummy will be gone till Thursday, I'm the maid for the week..Sigh. I have to cook rice and run the washing machine everyday. I also have to get up early and prepare breakfast for me dumb bros. Bleeh :( Boring, boring, boring.
Wanna say thanks to Gary and Rizal. Am so happy you guys remembered my birthday although it was on the 29th of July and not today..hehe...Thanks neway, love you so much!
Am chatting with Herman. He tells me he's tired cos he went to play badminton today. Sigh, I miss badminton and tennis. I haven't played for months, not since Mal went to Indonesia. I miss Malini and also Herman, my beloved diadia. :P By the way, diadia means 'uncle' in Russian, rite Hermz? I know I'm a very kracivaya devushka.....HAHA :P
Yin Yean, thanks so much for being a faithful reader of my blog and giving me loads of support! Love you to bits, dear. You're the best. I could never ask for a better friend. I'm glad to know you're also abnormal like me..hehehe..
I chatted with Radiance before I left for the airport. Boy, it's been like 10 years since I last saw her. Nice chatting with you Radiance, after such a looooooooong while. Keep in touch!
Hmmm, I'm currently reading a book bout Dr. Paul Brand who worked with the lepers in India. It's really inspiring to know that so many people love God and are willing to give everything up just to serve others so that they might know God. I also admire Jackie Pullinger a lot.
Suze, thanks for being the bestest friend a gal could have. You and Dasha are really,really nice to me although at times I'm such an immature imbecile. Thanks for your concern and love. Miss you...
Went to Jackie Pullinger's conference in Sungai Petani last night. Jackie Pullinger is a street missionary in Hong Kong. She's done so many good things for the street people of Hong Kong that a University in HK recently conferred her with a doctorate.Anyways, I sat with David; was so happy to see him. It's really nice to see someone you spent 3 months with after not seeing them for a long time. I only wish the rest like Sean, Angel, Michelle, Kakak, Wisely, Kelly, Yin Yean, Mei Ying etc were there as well. Hmm, the conference was really enlightening. It was about reaching out to the poor. It's one of those things that make me think if my calling is missionary work and not medicine instead. Arghh, at times I can get so confused.
Was supposed to go to the 4 session of the conference again this morn, but mummy is flying off to Kuching for Dr. Judson and Mr. Jason Eng's funeral, so things are pretty hectic and...
Still can't quite get over the fact that the 7 are gone.
Wanna wish a happy belated birthday to Alistair Fang and Nuni (30th July). Alistair was my best childhood friend when I was staying in Subang Jaya. He and I used to do lotsa crazy stuff together when we were toddlers. Then, I moved to Kulim and he moved to Australia and so, we've lost contact for bout more than 10 years now. But, I'll never forget his birthday cos he was born exactly 1 day later than me, and we used to celebrate our birthdays together. Neway, Happy Birthday Alistair, wherever you are. Thanks for the memories :) Nuni is an NS friend. A good one. Miss her like crazy.
Wanna say thanks to all those who wished me Happy Birthday: Dasha, Jyne Pang, Ruby, Suze, Yin Yean, Mei Ying, Siao Yun, Angel, Devan, Mervyn, Yee Ling, Shu Fang, Han Yee, Yoke Ling, Chua Min, Manoj, Bennita, Darshillian, Kakak, Tracey, Jane, Albert, Samuel, Michelle, Fang Yee, Faye, Yuen Joo, Siang Ling, Ah San, Phui Yein, Kak Hazami, Lanny, Malini, Ganesh, Viknesh, Shankar, Neo, Awien, David, Vimalan, Kamlesh, Cheah, Sugumar, Uthes, Kumutha, Boo, Tharani, Tamil, Loy Fatt, Mathan, Sharlu, Wu Kang.
I know there must be some more, but, I can't really recall, so if I've left out your name, please, please forgive me k? Thanks so much for all the support and love you've given me :)
Am supposed to collect 5 species of plants for my bio project :( Am also supposed to give a speech tomorrow during assembly entitled "The Qualities of A Successful Student". Gah! It's total nonsense. I can't seem to write the speech cos it's all so hypocritical. I mean, I never did all those things I'm asking my juniors to do. Fiddlesticks and nonsense! Why didn't my 'lovely' principal just ask someone else to give the speech? I'm just average, not even on par with people like Ju Juen and Uthes who are like soooooo successful students.
I wil try to only come online once a week from now on. Exams are approaching and I'm not ready at all. Please pray for me. I don wanna fail my Biology, Chemistry, Pure Maths and Pengajian Am. Pray that I won't be lazy, cos I really am very, very lazy. Pray also I'll remember all the facts and understand what I'm studying. Thanks :)
Malini called from Indonesia just now. I feel so bad. She started crying and saying how much she misses us. i miss u too Mal!! Stay strong k? I know it's tough, but life was never meant to be a bed of roses u know? Just think, in 5 years time, you'll be a doc! And I'll be so proud of u, already am, gal! Muackz....take care..luv u like crazy!!
I miss so many people, I feel like crying now. I'm so sad Uncle Judson is gone. I'm so sad for the families of the victims. I know they're in the sweet arms of Jesus now and I envy them that. That's the only thing that is comforting; knowing that they're in paradise. Life is so darn short. One minute you're here and one minute, you're gone. I feel so.....I donno how to describe my feelings. I mean today it's them, tomorrow it could be someone I love. I only want to die when I've done something that I feel is meaningful. If possible, I want to die for the sake of Jesus' name. Sigh, it's a terrible time it is. I hate my birthday this year. I don't feel cheerful at all although so many love and cherish me. I'm terrible, rite?
Death is morbid and yet so beautiful at the same time. The morbid part is, what was once a breathing human is now a lifeless one, unable to inhale or exhale. The beautiful part is, it is the end of all sufferings and sorrow and the beginning of a sublime and blissful life with our Saviour and Lord. Arghhh, I'm starting to think things again.
This has been a week of sorts for me. It started out with me riding high on euphoria. After all, this is the week I celebrate my 18th birthday. So, I should be feeling euphoric, rite?
Sunday: Andrew's landslide win(just like I predicted) made me so high I sms-ed and called people like crazy to tell them bout it. By the way, congrats, Andrew! Am so proud of you dude! Keep up the good work! Will continue to vote for you ;)
Monday and Tuesday: The day before the day before my birthday. Had a great time at school driving Dasha, Jyne Pang, Mathan, Vimalan and bout half the class crazy with my Spiderman antics and cacat-ness. Auntie Jamy arrived on Tuesday from KL bringing my favourite bak kua and chocolate cake :)
Wednesday: The day before my birthday. Another cool day at school. Wednesday nite, birthday wishes started pouring in. National Service friends remembered my birthday! Then, David called. Was so ecstatic cos I hadn't talked to him since NS. Been missing him and the others like crazy. Talk and teased him. The line was disrupted and had to hang up,but promised to call him back. As I was about to call him, mummy got an sms from someone saying that 5 dead bodies had been found. My heart just sank so bad. The bodies had not been identified. 2 people were stil missing. Sms-ed David, Faye, Daniel, Andrew, Herman and others to let them know and ask them to pray for the other 2 and the families of the victims. Suddenly, didn't really feel like celebrating my birthday anymore. Kakak, Low, and Dasha called me to wish me happy birthday at midnight. Mei Ying, David, Jyne Pang, Ruby, Yuen Joo, Yee Ling and a few others sms-ed.
Thursday: My birthday. Received dozens of sms-es from NS frens. Dasha, Jyne Pang, Ruby, Low, Wu Kang, Loy Fatt, Yuen Joo, Cheah, Vimalan, Mathan, Kamlesh, Uthes, Sugumar and Tamil ordered a cake for me and celebrated my birthday in class. Thanks guys, love you all so much! Continued receiving sms-es throughout the day. Came back, went to church. After getting back, mummy received an sms from Aunty Susanna saying that Dr. Judson was one of the victims. Then, heard on the radio that all 7 had perished.
This is the worst and best birthday in my entire life. Ironic isn't it? I don't know. Feel so numb. Sad and just frustrated. Devastated. I don't know. I really don't know. Maybe I'll blog again tomorrow. Had so many things to type. But, now, somehow, I just don't feel like typing them all. Thanks to all of you who called and sms-ed me to wish me Happy Birthday. Will mention your names the next time I blog. In the meantime, please pray for all the families of the victims. Pray that they'll stay strong in the Lord.
Mummy just got an sms from Aunty Hie Eng saying that they recovered the missing helicopter at the foot of Mount Murud, Sarawak. Hallelujah!! It seems that the copter was not involved in a crash. Hallelujah again! Maybe they had to make an emergency landing or something. Please continue to pray that all 7 of Uncle Judson's team will be found. May God bless all of you who have been praying for them. Thanks...and stay strong in Christ!
Hmm, since the '100 Things Bout Me' list is kinda like, the 'in' thing nowadays, I've prepared one of my own. But it's not 100 things, it's not even 50 things. I'm just starting out with 30 things. I'll add somemore later on. Oh yeah, referring to my first sentence, actually, I'm not very sure if this list is the 'in' thing nowadays. I'm just saying that so that Andrew won't accuse me of stealing the idea from his webbie. Oops, the secret's out. Sorry Andrew. I'll make it up to you, someday,somehow :) Neways, hope you people enjoy the list of 30 things bout me that I've compiled,and hopefully you all learn something new bout me...hehehehe
30 THINGS BOUT ME (MOST OF) YOU NEVER KNEW
1. I'm the product of an interracial marriage. My dad is Punjabi and mummy's Chinese.
2. I'm absolutely proud of the fact that I'm a Christians and that Jesus Christ died to save sinful old me from perdition. Thank you Jesus! You're the best!!
3. I can speak 3 main languages. 2 of these(BM and English) I speak fluently and 1(Mandarin) not so fluently. I also converse in bits of Hokkien and Cantonese (thanks to all those Cantonese serials. See mummy, tv is good for SOMETHING!!...hehe)
4. My full name is Kuria Dip Silas, period. Unfortunately, the stupid registration department had to screw up and so my name on my IC is Kuria Dip Silas a/p Jug Dip Singh. Bleeh..quite a mouthful eh? I'm the only one amongst my sibling whose IC has this error. By the way, Kuria is NOT a Punjabi name. It's of Greek origin and it means 'lady'. (*blushing*)
5. My daddy is the pastor of a small independant church. So, technically, that makes me a PK(pastor's kid) :wink:
6. I'm a sucker for retro stuff, especially old movies and old music..hehe. I especially love Rodger and Hammerstein's musicals. I dig Shirley Temple and the Beegees as well. However, I do keep up-to-date with current music and movies. Right now, I'm crazy bout Hoobastank.
7. I'm a hopeless romantic at times and I get touched very easily. Lately,it seems like I'm worse. Whenever I tune in to Light and Easy, just a line from any song can make me wanna hug my pillow and bawl like I was born yesterday.
8. I'm an avid reader. I love books that have an impact on people, especially books that make me feel inspired after reading em. I must read at least one chapter from a book before I doze off at night. I used to read at least one book before I slept, but now, I'm older and I tire easily..hehehe.. 8) Yupz, I'm a super-duper fast reader.
9. I was born premature and was declared a 'gone-case' by the docs, but thanks to God, I'm still alive and kickin' today. The docs told my parents that even if I survived, I'd be mentally retarded and handicapped for life. My friends say they guess that's why I'm demented :D
10. Like I mentioned, I'm so demented at times. My friends never fail to be surprised at the numerous insane things I seem to do or come up with.
11. I talk. I used to talk non-stop at top speed. Thank God I'm less talkative now. When I'm quiet, people get scared cos they think I'm in a foul mood. Actually, although I love talking, now that I'm more mature(ahem,ahem) I feel that at times, one must know when to be silent,rite?
12. I can outeat all the boys in my class. The amount of food I consume in a year is enough to feed a small nation for 2 years(I'm not exaggerating).
13. I play the piano. I stink at it though. Was supposed to take my diploma this year, but halfway through I scrapped the whole thing cos I don't plan to make music my career.
14. I think a lot. I spend much time thinking deep thoughts and I always feel abnormal cos people around me don't seem to be thinking bout the same things.
15. I'm a terrible sportswoman but I still love it just the same,especially badminton, tennis, swimming and just jumping or running around.
16. I try very hard to fit in BUT I never compromise my beliefs or principles, or change my point of view just to please someone, especially if it's pertaining to religious matters. When I say NO, I mean NO.
17. I love my friends a lot and I'm proud of each and everyone one of them. I love them so much that I spend half of my time worrying that they don't love me like I do them.
18. I occasionally suffer from bouts of depression, low self-esteem, and an inferiority complex.
19. I detest studying and exams. Especially exams. Contrary to what most people think, I DO NOT study during my free time. I'm a lazy, lazy gal. Don't believe me? Just ask my mum.
20. I am a people person. I love meeting people and adding them to my chain of friends. I'm also generally friendly to almost everyone I meet.
21. You can talk to me bout many topics and rest assured that you won't be bored, UNLESS I'm in a bad mood or feeling bored myself. :wink:
22. I love it when people come to me with their problems or just to talk because they trust me. It makes me feel treasured and appreciated. I especially love having heart-to-heart talks with people and I get frustrated when I come across people who don't know how to express themselves, cos I'm someone who expresses herself very well. But, I respect the fact that every individual differs from the other.
23. The items on my 'GOAL LIST' include bungee jumping, climbing the Swiss Alps and acquiring the French language, to name a few.
24. I hate violence against women and children. I am what you might call a mild feminist and I believe that men and women deserve equal rights. To me, all children deserve equal chances to obtain education at a free or affordable rate. Just imagine how many billions of kids go to waste just cos they live in poverty and can't afford education, let alone the basic necessities every human being needs.
25. I love children and I teach in Sunday School. Besides that, I also teach piano to several kids.
26. My ambition is to become a paediatrician so I can help children, especially those who are less fortunate and victims of abuse, war etc.
27. I believe that each citizen in a country deserves EQUAL rights, regardless of race, religion or gender.
28. I look like a goody-goody two shoes but in reality, I'm NOT. I'm as naughty, witty and cheeky as any teenager out there, BUT I know my limits.
29. I'm the only girl amongst my siblings and this makes me the apple of my daddy's eye :wink: hehhee... As a result, I'm quite spoilt and baby-ish although I'm the eldest. However, I can be astonishingly selfless and mature when the need arises.
30. I love performing arts like drama, singing, script writing etc. I've joined storytelling and choir competitions. I've been an emcee a few times and I've give several speeches. I was also the ex-conductor of my secondary school's choral speaking team and an ex-debater. These are a few things I'm good at.
Yay, managed to catch Andrew in action, at last! :) The song he sang was such a nice song(note to self:ask Andrew for lyrics of the song), really meaningful and all that. Managed to blackmail loads of people to vote for him,hehe, and they were kinda fed up liao, cos I went around screaming "Vote for Andrewwwww!!!!!!!!!" like, a thousand times that day.
Read a book entitled "Tortured For Christ" by Richard Wurmbrand a few days back. It's an amazing book. It's all about how the Underground Church and Christians are being persecuted, especially under the Communist Regime. Richard Wurmbrand is a pastor who also underwent persecution by the Communists in Russia but was later released and 'bought' by rank-and-file Christians and was brought out of Russia so he could spread the word to other Christians all over the world on the torture faced by the Christians in Russia, China, etc. Just reading it made me cry cos the account of the persecution they went through and are still going through is so horrific. What made me shed more tears was how forgiving and loving these persecuted Christians were towards their persecuters. Only people who really have God's love in them would be able to do that! Some of them are teenagers like me and I really salute them for being able to give up their lives for Christ when so many other teenagers round the world are caught up in worldly things. Shamefully, I sometimes am also.
I always wonder if my reaction would be like theirs if I was in the same situation. Lord, please give me the strength and love to be able to do the same.
Anyways, if you can, do try and get hold of that book k? I don't simply recommend books to people. I only tell people bout them when the books really have the ability to make an impact and touch our hearts.
Hmmm, school starts again tomorrow. Sigh, lazy to go back :? Hehe, I'll be turning 18 very,very soon. YAY!!! That's why I love the month of July, cos it's the month I was born :wink:
This poem has something to do with the question above; Why Me?
WHY ME?
I ask,"Why me?" Why am I so free to enjoy life while others are suffering? Why am I taking things forgranted while others have nothing?
I ask,"Why not me?" Why am I not allowed to pursue what I want when others have more than they desire? Why do others have so much fun when I feel like I'm in the midst of a fire?
I ask,"Why me?" Why was I chosen to be His child when so many others are much better than me? Why did he grant me salvation when more deserving people are still in bondage; not yet set free?
I ask,"Why not me?" Why do others suffer for His name's sake when I'm sitting here getting lukewarm? Why is it so easy for them to die for Christ when I'm not even sure if I'll be able to wheather the storm?
All this asking, pondering and wondering "Why me, Why not me?" The answers are known by only my Saviour and King Jesus Christ, who died and gave His life for me
Wrote this poem when I was craving chocolate really, really badly. It’s extremely outrageous, but I like it :)
ODE TO CHOCOLATE
Chocolate, oh Chocolate Wherefore art thou? Don’t thou knoweth I need thee now? Thou maketh me drool and go weak in my knees Someone, oh someone, give me a bar of Chocolate please
Chocolate, oh Chocolate Thou art my heart’s delight Every time I consume thee I feel happy and bright Thou giveth me strength to pass my day Be it rest, work or play
Chocolate, oh Chocolate How dare thou seduce me when I’m on a diet? To get a bite of thee I would gladly join a riot Like Cupid’s bow thou pierce my heart My dear Chocolate, from thee I cannot part
Chocolate, oh Chocolate How pleasing thy aroma Enticing; intoxicating me over and over Thou tease and tempt me mercilessly When I think of thee, my stomach growls hungrily
Chocolate, oh Chocolate I must now bid thee adieu Without thee in my life, I feel sad and blue I’ll never forget the memories we shared, Choco and me My dear, darling Chocolate, I know we are meant to be
Just got back from church. Tonight, daddy's sermon was from John 13. Verse 7 particularly, struck me. It says, "Jesus answered him,"You do not understand now what I'm doing, but you will understand later." I'm so blind, am I not? I mean it's like I've been hit right, left and center with verses, and sometimes just people telling me that God has a better plan for me. They say that I'll know what it is when it's all over. And still, I refuse to let go. Stubborn, obstinate me. God, please forgive me. Help me forget the past and get along with what i have now.
Actually I'm really beginning to enjoy form 6 life cos I have so many crazy classmates:wink: Besides that, a few teachers are really good and I understand what most of em teach. Besides that, I've been driving half the class crazy cos I started this really stupid thing where I pretend I'm Spiderman, or, actually, Spidergirl:roll: It's a dumb joke I got from Rizal and Shan. And so I've been like Spidergirl since last Friday and even the Maths teacher, Mr. Ong knows bout it, thanks to Mathan. The amazing thing is, they're all calling me Spidey now although they claim I'm the most crazy person they've met. And they're asking me to be Catwoman, to which I said NO cos the suit is too tight for me. Hah. Actually, the spidey suit is also too tight lar, but then..hahaha..I'm crazy. 8)
Oh yeah, I was involved in an accident the other day. Some idiot reversed into my car. I looked out and saw his bumper had several scratches and I thought, Ok, not too bad. But, when I got out of the car to assess my car's damage, it was like, WHAM! a bolt just hit me, cos the whole door that was hit was like terribly dented. I was like paralysed for a long while cos it's my first accident and also I didn't know whose fault it was. Then the idiot got out of his car and started scolding me. It happened in front of a mamak stall and so a lot of people saw the accident. They started boo-ing him and ridiculing him cos it was his fault and he was scolding me. He got scared, got into his car, and went off, just like that. OUCH! And stupid,moronic, imbecilic me was still gaping there like a goldfish with it's mouth open. Managed to get his number plate though, but u know lah, the police can't do much also. Neway, it costed my parents a neat rm 450. Double OUCH! :( I can't believe I let him scold me, and it was his fault, not mine!! :x But come to think of it now, it is pretty funny, right? :P
They still haven't found Dr. Judson,so please continue praying.
Hmmm, nothing much happened in school today. I was feeling so bored and sleepy. Yawning non-stop...hehe :lol: I tried to write another 'poem' or shall I say,I tried to produce another burst of expression just now,but I've absolutely no inspiration whatsoever today. It feels weird, me writing poems again after many 'poem-less' years. I loved writing poems when I was 9 or 10, but after that, I just stopped. I don't know why. All I can remember is, I threw my whole collection of poems away one day in a fit of anger. I sooooo regret that now. Stupid me :(
Then, there was the time I pretended I was a script writer cum director. Hahahaha, those were the days. I had a time of my life writing scripts and 'directing' plays in primary school, the most famous being 'Cindi and Rella' which is, yeah u guessed it, an extra extra long, more elaborate version of Cinderella. I remember I had so much fun directing the movie with the 'cast': June Fern, Sugashini, Dasha, Siang Ling, Yoke Ling, Natasha, Samihah, and so many other extras. I say it was an extra long version cos the storyline went on for a month and we never seemed to reach the ending :oops: In the end, I just decided to finish off Rella, who so happens to be, yeah u guessed it, the evil stepsister. I also directed numerous dramas, which were all full of romance, murder, intrigue and comedy. But, I never directed one of the horror genre cos I'm not partial towards horror stories/movies. I love good murder mysteries though. Me loves Agatha Christie and Hercule Poirot's moustache!!! :wink:
Since entering secondary school, the only things I've written are summaries and essays for exams. It's high time I added some spice to my otherwise mundane life. Especially mundane when it comes to creative arts. I need change. I need to diversify myself. Hahaha, biodiversity is getting to me. I happen to love bio now, started loving it 2 days ago, for no reason. Hopefully it's not another 'hangat-hangat tahi ayam' thing of mine.
Okies, continue praying and God bless you peeps out there!
Bad news. Bad,bad news.The earlier news I gave you all bout Uncle Judson has turned out to be false info. Whoa,although it was broadcasted on radio and tv, they found out that actually, Dr Judson and team are still missing. They've been missing for nearly 48 hours now.We are all very worried,but we believe that God will protect them and keep them, Amen? Please, please Christians,pray for them cos it seems that it's raining over in Sarawak and they believe that Uncle Judson and team are lost in the jungle. Just imagine how harsh the conditions must be. Stuck in the midst of a dense jungle with heavy rain and possibly not enough food and water. So please please pray. Will keep everyone updated. God bless
Kekekekeke(Steffan kor's laughter), I'm back with my final post for today...I promise!! Actually this post is unlike any other post I've posted before :D I've decided to add some variety to my blog page, and this is my first shot at it. Hmmm, I wrote this just now, before I had my nap. Personally, I think it's terrible, and I don't think it's worthy to be called a poem, so I'm just calling it one of my 'sudden bursts of expression' 8) It's all bout how I've been feeling the past few months, totally frustrated, and it pretty much sums up what I've been trying to tell others but can't. Anyways, here goes...
FRUSTRATION
Frustrated... Why must it be so? Why can't I just let go?
Frustrated... It's gnawing into my heart It's tearing me apart
Frustrated... I wish I could wake up one day and find It's just another nightmare of mine
Frustrated... I think I'm going insane Oh, how I feel the endless pain
Frustrated... Save me from this misery Set me free cos that's what I wanna be
Frustrated... Doesn't my life have any other meaning Than sitting around and staring at the ceiling?
Frustrated... The only thing I wish for now Is to be myself again, somehow
Hehe,naughty me...the reason why I'm adding so many blogs today is cos I wanna earn more tbucks so I can buy something to 'beautify' my blog page. I know it's darn ugly and boring,but what to do ah? I'm no computer expert :cry:
Hmm, 'The Reason' by Hoobastank also happens to be my new fave song!!I just love Hoobastank!! Reshmonu!! I've gotta get a dose of 'It's You That Matters' at least once each day cos I'm so in love with that song as well!! Oh, did I mention I'm also crazy bout The Darkness?hehehe :wink:
Reading C.S. Lewis' Chronicles of Narnia all over again. I first read it like, years ago. Donno why, but I just feel like reading all 7 books again and so, here I am, travelling through Narnia with Aslan,who happens to be my fave character(obviously!!), Diggory, Lucy and the rest :) Besides that, I'm also reading a book by Steve Chalke entitled, 'He Never Said....' Actually just started reading it yesterday,but it seems like a cool book.
Been reading my Biology notes also...hehehe...I'm an angel,am I not? 8) What am I to do? I don wanna be the only one standing in Bio class when Miss Annie Clara asks a question and I donno how to answer :oops: I'm mad bout protozoas,especially amoeba,arcella(which happens to be a nickname given to me by Jyne Pang), and also kinda gila bout ciliophoras like paramecium :) Hahahhaa, I feed on algae,flagellate and ciliophoras :P Ciao
Wow,when was the last time I blogged?I guess bout a week ago.Donno why,I sometimes feel like I've lost my interest in blogging :D Sigh,that's half-hearted me. My mum calls me mediocre cos I'm always doing things halfway. However,this time I'm determined NOT to stop blogging just to prove that I can continue doing something and not lose interest in it..hehe
Said goodbye to Rizal on Sunday :cry: He's now in Shah Alam doing AUSMAT before he leaves for Australia at the beginning of 2006. There's no need for me to say how much I miss him cos I know you people can pretty much guess just by reading my previous blogs. It seems to me,my blogs just seem to be full of stuff on how much I miss certain people,bla,bla,bla. I hope none of you are getting fed up with old,sentimental me :oops:
School is getting to be more fun now,surprisingly...hehe.....:shock: I even feel like I can understand what Mdm. See is teaching during Chemistry class nowadays :wink: The only thing I hate is the fact that we,(Me,Dasha,Ruby and Jyne Pang) are constantly inhaling all the dust caused by the chalked used to write on the blackboard. I am positive my lungs are so full of chalk now and I might just roll over and die soon. Our eyes are always itchy in school,especially mine,cos of my contact lenses,and today Jyne Pang literally looked like a smoker cos his eyes were so darn red and watery.
Late last night, Mummy got a call I think from Aunty Hie Eng in Miri,Sarawak, to inform her that the helicopter Dr Judson Tagal and his team were in had gone missing. For those of you who read today's 'The Star', I'm sure you would have noticed it on the front page. Anyways, mummy was really anxious and sad cos Dr Judson is one of her good Sarawak friends. So, we prayed bout it last night and again this morning on our way to school. I sms-ed Herman who said he knows Dr Judson's daughter,and asked him to pray as well. When I got back from school,the first thing daddy said to mummy when we entered the house was that Dr Judson and his team had been found alive and well. Praise the Lord!! Thank God no one was hurt and the helicopter didn't crash although it was experiencing some technical problems. They managed an emergency landing, abandoned the copter and walked to a nearby long house, if I'm not mistaken. This just shows that prayers are indeed answered and God is a marvellous and wonderful God. Amen! :wink:
I know, I know I said I've decided not to come online during school days :oops: but, bout 10 minutes ago, I got a call from Jyne Pang saying, "woi, come online, malini is online." I was like, "ok, ok"..hehe. it's so good to be able to chat with her, after like one week of not talking to her. For some of you, 1 week might be nothing. But to me, not talking with a really good friend for one week is like not talking to him/her for a year!! I miss you so much, Mal! Take care,gal. I know you're now a 'millionaire', and don't forget to intro me to any cute guys :wink: When you get back, cook some of that fried porridge for me k? Btw, ur NS 'baju kilang' is still with me. Sorry lar, forgot to return to you before you went to Indon 8) Oklar darling, you know how much I miss you, so I don't need to be so mushy or else people might start suspecting something :wink: But seriously, I miss you soooooooo much!! :cry: Come back soon!! :D
Well, this will be my last blog for a few days to come. I've decided not to come online during school days :) Must start studying soon cos half a year has passed by, just like that. My radio clock alarm started buzzing around 7.40 a.m. Set it early cos I had a breakfast date with Vick, Gary and Ganesh. But as usual, i swtiched it off and went back to sleep :) Around 10 minutes later, my handphone alarm went off. Switched it off and set the alarm for 8 a.m. At 8, the alarm rang and i forced myself to get up cos I haven't seen Vick and Gan for more than a month and I wasn't goin to miss having breakfast with em. Anyways, Gary picked me up and we set off to BM for yummy curry mee. Post curry mee and iced milo, piggy me suggested we go for 'dim sum'. So, Gary drove all the way back to Kulim and we had lots of dim sum :) I LOOOOOVE dimsum!!! Ganesh and Vick are pretty much the same. As usual, I love hanging out with the 3 of em, they practically 3 of my best, if not closest friends, but I'm a little sad cos they're life seems to revolve around their coll and stuff happening in the college. I'm like so blur everytime they start talking bout it. Hehe, but I realize that life must go on, and they have moved to another phase of life and matured. I guess it's only me who's still stuck in the same old boring place(no offense, fellow Kulim residents) and still stuck with the same old boring routine every single day. Sigh, sometimes I really,really yearn for a change. I need to go somewhere else to develop my life. I need to find the real me. Ok, I'd better not get started on that topic or I won't stop :)
Hmmm, Khai Luen is back today. Unfortunately, I won't be able to meet up with him :( Long time since I last saw him. I'm sooooooooo happy my school decided to take a day off today. 3 cheers for Azizah Rasol!! HAHAHHAHA (I can see the Badlishans who are reading this laughing their heads off). Tomorrow is Monday and I don't like Mondays, cos on Monday we have all 5 subjects in our schedule :( BOOOOOOOOOOOOORING!! Stupid friendster screwed up again!!! I can't seem to retrieve the testi Steffan kor wrote for me!!! Arghhh Arghhh!
